we really care. But why are you turning us away?

By focusing on the people who dont care about you, you will eventually push away people who care about you.

Hmm. Food for thought.

I was reading CNN when I came across the case of Asia Bibi. Mother of 2, Christian, living in Pakistan with her family. She's a 45-year old lady who was sentenced to the death penalty - not for murder, theft, kidnapping or any offences that warranted capital punishment, but for blasphemy. Or so-called blasphemy. It was a Pakistan law that gives the govt the right to sentence blasphemers to death. And a very controversial law indeed. CNN reports that it wasn't in the Koran, nor in prophet Muhammad's teaching had indicated that blasphemers ought to die. Pakistan Muslims are very adamant that it be carried out because she has been accused of insulting their god. But I really do hope she gets a pardon from the president. Mistakes are made, sure. Sentence her to labour work, to jail time, but to death? 

I don't think that event theft equates to this sentence in Pakistan. And theft might lead to a poorer family who happens to rely on that last valuable to buy some miserable amount of food for the whole family being taken away from them. The family might be starved to death. So in this case, theft leads to deaths of 4 lives. 

But insulting someone's religion... Don't see however can it lead to someone's death. Unless.. People got too agitated and has a heart attack and die. Okay, weigh and compare the possibilities of this two issues and let me know, which is more likely? OF course is theft la, duh! And you want to kill people for blasphemy more than you want to kill people who did actual, physical wrong which can have a lasting effect on their victims? Words are mere words. You don't take it to heart, it wouldn't harm you. I just.. just don't get the adamancy of people wanting and calling for her death. They threatened the govt to not pardon her. Hey, all these unforgiving attitude and mentality is not a sign of devotion. It's a sign of stubbornness, blind faith, and everything your religion would definitely not teach you if it is a good religion. 

I'm not bringing religion into this matter now, just wanting to say that the followers should sometimes, stop and look, and be more considerate and forgiving of other religion-believers as well. 

Sorry, i hungry ah, typed too much. Heh.

Now that I’ve stepped into the society, I truly understand the complexity and dilemma of this question. I remember I used to believe that absolutely nothing can stand in the way of one’s happiness. Boy was I wrong. Barely 4 months into real adult life, I already understand the responsibility of a working adult, how it is important to provide – even a little token – allowance to my mom and grandparents. It’s not simply a case of wanting to show off; I just want to express my gratitude and letting them know that they need not worry about me since I’ve grown up.

Nevertheless, this topic of choosing happiness versus wealth got stuck in my head for a while. Should I exit early or should I stay on for just a little while more, since it’s quite apparent I won’t be able to get another job with this kind of pay due to my lack of experience. I have to say that both got their merits. If I stay on, I get more months of experience (between 6 months and 4 months, I think 6 months is of course better!), I get to see the events that I clinched (NTUC NTUC!) till the end; if I leave, I won’t be miserable every morning.

Seeing how so many reasons for me to stay are actually balanced out by one reason for me to leave, it’s inevitable that I will leave. It’s just a matter of time; now or later?

I believe this question will continue to haunt me for the rest of the year, which doesn’t seem very long, but isn’t short enough either.

P.S: oh, if I leave, they can find someone more capable to get event sales for them! I really believe I’m a lousy salesperson and really do not wish to be a burden to them.

Good to see nobody's reading. Then I can type whatever I want.

Sigh... People are leaving by truckloads......

Is this a sign that I was wrong to accept this job?

I've been getting news of more and more people quitting. But.......... I have no idea what I will continue to do. I like writing, but I'm not committed, nor insightful enough to be a journalist. I like business related stuff, but I'm not that business minded.

This current job feels very very stifling when I thought of those that I have to deal with, like the "o-er C"people. I understand this is how MNC, especially these types of mncs, work, but I dont really like the way they work. Is mad obstructing my views and opinions. It's like putting a round watermelon into a box, or a honeydew into a triangular shaped container - it stifles the growth of the fruit and ends up making it look abnormal. I dont wanna be abnormal, but neither do I want to be a job-hopper. Plus the local colleagues treat me well! Plus the pay is well! Plus the boss is good (not nasty and mean, which is good alrdy!).

All I can do is wait until next year before I decide again.

And next year is very long ahead....

:(

Working for almost two months now.

It's quite lethargic actually. Okay im feeling quite guilty at blogging during work but..... I wont blog at home. Usually when I reached home i'd be toooooo damn tired to blog. No energy to even go online play fashion world and city of wonder! :((

I'm becoming like mom. Only nua-er. Shit.

And mom's becoming like me. She is HOOOOKED to fb games, i tell you. HOOKED like a fish and a fish hook kind of hooked.

Nonsense.

Shall stop now. I very scared kena caught secretly blogging. HAHA.

helloooooo.

seven days = a week. Ok. i shall not care now. I dont know if is you changed number or what but..... not replying is rude okay! especially i sent so many msg to you alrdy. rarrrr

First few times it happened, I was annoyed.

Then I became pissed off.

Now I learnt not to hope too much. Actually, I've given up hope alrdy. I dont know what you think but I'm pretty sure you don't care about us. I'm really going to give up trying.  Whatever. Have a nice life.

trying to give myself an english name because people will never get the correct pronunciation of my name. HOW. Whatever name i think of sounds weird...

Meghan Lim (?!)
Wynne Lim (:O)
Ryleigh Lim? (Or Riley, but there's the chance people will pronounce it as REEEEEE-LEEE)
Allison Lim (HMM.)

aiya, all because of the surname. makes everything sounds weird!
people, cast your vote! haha. I might choose the most voted one. :p
Currently I like Ryleigh cause it sounds cooler. HAHA. more androgynous and nobody can guess whether it's a girl or guy. Same goes for Allison! haha. Ok, like the spelling of Meghan. Alright. Decided to strike of Wynne. No single syllable name! :))

Im mad.

Chey.

turned out to be a toshiba lkk. Hahaha. So there's still hope for my ideal very-expensive-but-not-very-useful sony, or the very-value-for-money fujitsu laptop! i swear im going to buy a new laptop you know. cause the company laptop's gotta return to them if i quit!

ok, i decided that i would work in private sector for 3 years, before becoming a lecturer! :)) I dont like to teach english, maths and science, but i would like to try teaching marketing.  It's sometime im interested in, so im going to try do my best in this three years (or more), then be a lecturer! 

aiya, maybe it wouldn't even come true, but who knows! hahahaha. ok la ok la. I am hungry. need to sleep soon!

quite scared about this job. everybody's saying it would be tough tough tough. but so far i havent learn any substantial stuff in the briefing leh. Except what K has told me just before i left. I'm glad my colleagues are all nice people! even though i'm still abit scared of K. But she lives in bt panjang! so she must be nice! HAha. :p

ok good night!.

first full-time job. I'm eager to start, but at the same time, feeling quite apprehensive towards the job. I dont know if i can actually get events for the company. It feels so challenging but I'm willing to try. First job, must be optimistic! 

think they're going to allocate company laptop to me. But i dunlike mac! lols.